ODAAT – Really

ODAAT – Really

While I have found some amazing and treasured friendships in AA, not every meeting or group has been that way… I want to feel uplifted and empowered after a meeting, not defeated, insecure, and doubtfully questioning myself. In that regard, here’s an important lesson I’ve learned: Take what I can, and let the rest slip away. And try not to be judgmental about it. Some people just do it differently and that doesn’t make theirs bad and mine good. It doesn’t make them wrong and me right…

Saving a Seat (and Knowing the Truth)

Saving a Seat (and Knowing the Truth)

Old playgrounds, old playmates. Early in my sobriety, I grappled with the idea that I would have to give up the places and people I loved––the latter being the greater sacrifice, naturally.

It was easier than I imagined to avoid my old haunts, and most of my friends were happy to meet for coffee instead of drinks or to take a walk after dinner instead of staying out ’til the wee hours.

Recovery Consciousness: Keeping It Simple

Recovery Consciousness: Keeping It Simple

Life  is about change. Sometimes the changes are obvious when you are in a support group or therapy. But these environments are  like a hot house protecting delicate flowers. The real test is when you go out into the world. Can you practice what you have learned in when you go to work or socialize with your friends?  Yes! Just remember it is a process and it takes time. You will … move forward if you keep working at it and are optimistic when things seem to  be taking forever.

Everything or Nothing

Everything or Nothing

The Higher Power, Grand Overall Design, How It Works, Thinking Stuff, the Thing Itself… Whatever you want to call it, although I felt suddenly devoid of It these past few days, I realized It’s working perfectly as always. In the absence of feeling great and on top of the world – in fact in the glaring presence of feeling dreadful and lowdown, I know with certainty that I am still connected and I can trust the process. Even in my crankiness and panic.